Past Reflections upon Tear drops of Rain

As I stood in the rain at the bus stop in the middle of the steady down pour of cold rain in my Trench and with out a umbrella waiting for the bus, I started to remember poems that I wrote last winter when I spent my Holidays alone at the end of the year. It was a cold year for me as in emotionally. My heart was a lone and I had not to many friends still the area they mostly all went back to where the originally came from before coming to work for the government in Washington DC. Please enjoy my thoughts and feelings here in words and in my thoughts. This is unpublish work here for you to enjoy and probably will not be published until I am long gone. You have all a nice and great rainy day.

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2. Forest of White

Crytals
Falling from the gray of the sky
Upon the feelings of my soul
As the day of Thanksgiving approachs
Approachs in minutes and hours
Upon the soul of the Earth and many of warm hearts

I peer in the forest of fallen leave
Of a time of Autumn
As the trees letting the leave of many
Many colors dance down upon the horizon of Mother earth
Mother Earth of love and feeling
Upon the soul and surface of the skin of beauty

Crystals of memories frozen in time
Of times of other winters
Winters that have been kept in my heart
My soul of loving flaming emotional feelings
Feelings of Moments that keep my alive
Alive to this day

I peer at each snow
Snow crystal
Carried by God’s breath upon the brisk winter’s night
A night of special memories
Of times of old and times of new
And times to come that will be captured in each crystal
Each crystal of my thought

As the crystals form the quilt of sleeping earth, I drift to
Sleep feeling the emotions that fill my head of the past.
A past that will always touch my heart
My soul.

As I am covered with the blankets of the snow
To remember my warm and caring times
Upon my heart and soul of thanksgiving
And a time of giving, warmth to others
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3. First Blankets of Winter

A light breeze crosses the bridge of my nose
Pondering the times of life. Feeling the essences
Of thought upon my thoughts
Knowing it was going to happen
Feeling the breeze coming to me

Familiar feelings of past memories captured in crystal
Captured in the fortress of my mind and heart
The chambers of my heart, soul and body
Knew before the wind stopped

Snowflakes fell upon my soul and heart
Bring my memories of special times
Times upon the eve of Thanksgiving Day
A day of time that I thank god
For the blessings that he gave me
Most important the ones that give me love and hope

Slipping for a moment the blackness of the sky turned gray
Gray as the mist of life that covers our future and not knowing
Knowing what is coming down the line
Then the small pieces that make the blanket for the earth

Then green slips away and falls and bleeds away out of sight
No more
No longer
A thin blanket for now
On the 23rd day of the eleventh month
Of 2005

As the blanket brings in the warming holidays
Of apple cider to Molted wine
To lovers cuddling in front
Of a wood burning fire place
To memories that will be remembered forever.
Forever with the first blanket of the season of winter

Winter of being with loved ones
To small moments in relationships that make it longer
Loving and dear to human memory
And feed the soul and spirit
Our spirits
Your spirits
My spirit
I will always remember the first blankets of Winter
As god covers the horizons and mountains of gray and blue

The first blankets of a day of thanksgiving in ones heart
Soul that gives to others for the Thanksgiving to your loved ones
And strangers alike

First Blanket of Winter
First Blanket of warm feelings
First Blanket of the Earth of Winter.
First Blanket.
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4. Blue Snow

Winds of Past
Cast shadows
Shadows upon the landscape
Dreamscape of reality to dream thought feelings
What do I give? What do I reveal to one soul?
How can I feel the thoughts of others?
Snow falls and I think of one.
Snow cast upon the cold
Steel where you can see yourself
See your thoughts and feelings of others
Reflecting upon the blue suns in the sky
Upon a face of human feelings

Blue Snow Blue Snow
Why have you cast yourself upon me?
What is in store for us upon the sand felt path?
Baby blue, navy blue, Sky blue
Thoughts I feel when I am alone
Color I am painted with upon my soul.

Blue feelings touch my heart
Touch my soul.
I watch the snow as I see a shade of blue
As I seat in a living room of not mine
I peer into the snow of the forest of life
As the trees of old cast a shadow of darkness
As I wrap my soul in memories of old
To struggle to cast beauty of thoughts to me
As the Snow slow
I fall into the waves of emotional blue
Blue into my thoughts
As the blanket of emotions cast
Me upon the shores of the sand man
As I fall into a state of sleep
Sleep as I fall.
Awaking for the eyes of blue.
Whispers Whispers of the blue snow





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5. Snow

Cold, brisk, vanishing
Cold as the wind cutting through me
Cutting through the barren trees
Trees of brown
Dressed in the garb of Mother Nature
The true color of Mother Nature of earth

Brisk as I feel the winds of the North
North cast upon my soul and spirit
My heart slows
Feels the cold brisk
Loneliness wrap around me as the snows
Snows come from the west and the fronts come from the North
As the winds of the south vanish away
Away into the snow capped mountains afar

Snow trapping thoughts of icy thoughts and feelings
I sleep as my feelings have become hidden now
No longer around
No longer visible to my thoughts

Season’s change
Now the winter of my life
As I slow
I feel nothing anymore
Only loneliness
What was love?
The snows cast doubt upon me

I wonder about all that I have experience
Was it real?
The Snows cover all my thoughts and events
Events of drastic change to me
To my soul
Snow, Snow, Snow
Where is my companion?
Snow I no longer see my path
The sand is missing and I think I walked
Walked off the wrong way.
Snow white and blinding
I feel you lord
There, I see the blinding love
Love of god
As I find my treks in the forest
As I fell asleep upon the bed
Bed of rose petals that god lay upon my soul
As I cast my soul to him and my faith
As I am lifted to a new level
Snow
A silent peace

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6. Glitter in the Blue

I peer
Peering into your horizon
Closely looking
Caught upon your soul
Within the field of glitter
Glitter in the sky
As I stare
As I marvel
Upon the beauty of life
In the sky
In your eyes
Center so dark but deep
Deep, So deep of thought
Beauty that you have to search
To get permission
From the owner of above
To touch the heart of a hidden angel
Angel of the snow
Angel of the winter that is cold and lonely
She gives comfort and the stars of the night
Stars that start within her field of emotions
Casting beauty and lighting your path
With her super novas
And North Star that marks your way
Your natural compass of love, life and friendship
As I get lost in your comforting blue field of beauty
Awakening with your suns within your deep blue
Blue eyes
Eyes of blue

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7. Sunrises of Thanksgiving

Moving Clouds
Clouds upon the horizon of Virginia
Forests of barren leaves
Brown and dead the forest
Sleeping it was
Sleep no more
The fingers of the light of god
God coming over the tips of the trees
Nude and asleep
Dancing leaves no more
Feel the brisk wind of the slip and dress of winter

Season of Christ
Bringing new birth to the Earth
To show the time that warmth
Warmth is not just found in the seasons
But cast upon the heart of the beat
Beat of ones heart
One that loves and comforts you
Upon your soul
Upon the write of a pen
To be touched by the eye of god
Warmth the sun gives
Like a kiss in the lips upon the night of lovers
To give warmth of love and heart
To show love upon ones soul
Upon the beauty of ones thought

As the creek flows through the soul of earth
One feels the beauty of the flow of love
From one to another
As the sun grows across the blue
Blue sky with clouds of streams
Pinkish-red paint my soul of love
Warmth with the Sunrise
Sunrise of love and beauty within
The Rays of the eye of god
A sunrise that lets me know that I live
Live one more day
To draw in the breath of god within my lungs
As I wake to the brisk winds of winter
To let me know to
Wake Up
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8. Winter Trees

Winter
Winter, uncovering the soul
Showing the warmth of soul
Of Heart
Of the eye that shows all
To listen to the heart

To feel the fingers of emotions of others
To feel the prints of her upon my soul
Knowing she is around
Around me
Wrapped in her emotions
Saying her thoughts
But touching quietly
Shadowy around my heart
Around my soul

The tree of winter
Showing the true soul of one
No mask
No leaves to hide the true image
The true heart and soul of one
As in the spring
As in the summer
With colorful dresses
Like the leaves upon the branches of one
Of one soul
Of one spirit
Of one thought

Deeper Winter brings people
People to the true them
During the Holidays
During Christ’s birth
To feel the cold
To see if you are loved
Or abandoned from society

Invited to feel warmth
To feel all
Or to feel none

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9. White Leaves

Dancing dancing
Celebrating the thoughts of family
Leaves no more
Festival of the leaves end

White of the crystals
Carried by the wind
Winds of gods breath
Harvested of apples
Apple cider
Of the grapes of the vine

Crushed
Squashed
Juices and nectar of the thoughts of life
Gods Nectar
Bottled
Matured and created
In bottles and corked
Sealed into the thoughts of the feelings
Of yesteryears

White
White White thoughts
Of white leaves dancing upon the thoughts of the season.
Season of the winter
Winter of white
Of fire places
Romance of ice skating

Touching my soul
Touching my spirit
My heart
Grasp the souls of others

White leaves of the holidays
Christmas
And the religious thoughts
Before the end
The end of the year
In a blanket of white
White thoughts of the soul

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10. Winter feelings

Where are you my star
I peer and feel you upon my soul
I feel your feelings and feel your heart afar
Who are you? Where are you?

I look upon the universe
To find her
As I peer through the snow
White and puffy with crystals
Like cotton of round balls
Balls of cotton from the heaven

As soft as the heart of Jesus
Feeling the thoughts and feelings of others
I ponder upon the super nova
Upon the feeling of the globe above

To feel the gravity of
Of the Moon of lovers dreams
To always feel their thoughts
To feel the hearts of others

I concentrate upon the universe
To feel the warmth through the cold of others
I feel the warmth rays of the sun
I try to understand my thoughts
My feelings
To understand my emotions

Of turbulent feelings that flow
Flow through my blood
What is going through my thoughts?

What am I feeling?
Oh heart of mine
The snow warms my thoughts
I feel all above to understand my heart
And soul

The snow buries my thought s and feelings
How I want to feel another around me at snow fall
Snow fall Snow fall
How I feel you upon my feelings.
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II. Remembering Italy 94

11. Villa of Clay

I stare
I paint
I think
I feel
I taste

Sunrise over olive groves
Olive virgin of the land of Pasta

Pizza of dough
Slices of Spheres of Mozz.
Beauty of the Rays of thought
How I remember Italy
How I love red

Red sauce
Of meat
Scattered Mushrooms

Seafood of Salmon
Mussels of shells
My life
My brush
Of Oxen hair
Paint the beauty of Assisi
Garlic sauce
Angel hair that touch
Touches my taste buds

How I sculpt the horizon blue
How I love the thoughts of Italy
Italy fills my thoughts and feelings
How I want to feel the warmth of the sunset
Tuscany touches me with the rays of god
I love the grass afar
I want to return to my beautiful studies
Afar Afar as the memory in my head

How I love the villa
Villa of beauty
Simplicity of love
Villa of 94
Clay of passed life
How I lived and was reborn there
In Italy’s womb
Villa of clay